Monday, August 27, 2007

Sudden Realizations

I came to, well, a sudden realization today. Now, some of you might want to smack me upside the head when I reveal this and yell, "We've been TELLING you that," but really - it took me by surprise.
In the last, oh, year or so I've dealt with several friendships gone awry. One is strained off-and-on, a couple have just ended altogether. And I've very much blamed this on myself. Wondered constantly what else I could do, if I'm a bad friend, if I ask too much of my friends, etc. But it dawned on me today that IT MIGHT NOT BE ME. Perhaps - just perhaps - the other people involved are the ones who are not behaving rationally. Perhaps I'm not to blame. There are other people that love me. I still have friendships that have lasted for oh-my-god-two-decades or more.
Probably my inability to see this before now stems from a combination of self-pity and misplaced guilt and also some self-centeredness (me me me me me, it must be about me). But wow. I feel like a weight has been lifted.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Um...See What Had Happened Was

Yeah. I'm really great at updating this blog, aren't I? What happened to my summer? I'm not really sure...all I know is that one day I was thinking about getting an extra job to help make ends meet and the next, I had *four* extra jobs and hardly enough hours in the day to do them.

And now school has started. Oh well.

Sadly this was NOT one of my extra jobs:

But it was a fun night anyway.

More later when, well, when something happens worth writing about. Or when I find a meme I like. Or, well...